Perangai sesetengah manusia......

what i wanna tell u today...is about certain attitudes of people around us....

FYI....every story below adalah himpunan dr story2 yg penah aku alami....it juz an opinion....luahan perasaan or pengajaran....no hurt feeling....peace no war....:)

FYI....i am a girl yg dibesarkn d kampung halaman yg damai tanpa hiruk pikuk desa n kebebasan yg ntah pape2....n i am very proud to be "budak kampung"...(^_^)....

tp aku pelik....ade yg malu ngaku asal dr kampung...konon2 low standard la kampung ni....but...for me....x kesah dr mane asal kt...proud to be that....proud to be MALAYSIAN...yeah!!....

FYI....biasa la dok kampung...x lari dari suasana org kampung yg amat amik berat antara jiran tetangga...x mcm yg dok banda...jiran sblh pn x kenal....mmm...yg amik berat 2 bagus la....kalo ade pertolongn...mmg cpt je dtg membantu...i2 yg bgs...tp ade jugak yg x bgs disebabkn perangai certain2 manusia....

contohnye.....suke mengumpat....suke sebar cite bukan2 or yg berbaur fitnah....n ade jugak yg suke bebenor jaga tepi kaen org...aissshhhh....

contohnye....kalo org kawen..mmg x de cite laen sebok nk tau hantaran bape la....budget bape la...bla bla bla....pas2 kalo hantaran cikit...siap kutuk2 lg...n plg x ley tahan...siap tlg jd melodi kpg plak 2...ish2....

aku pn terfikir...ape la mslh diorg ni....lantak la kalo hantaran cket ke....budget cket ke...2 kn hal die...maybe die ada sebab2 tersendiri....x boley ke just doakn mereka2 tuh bahagia smpai akhir hayat?? mmmmmmmmmm.....

pas2...bile ade org beli kereta baru...abes di jaja kenape org 2 beli kereta...pas2 kalo kene plak kereta yg di beli same ngn kete die...abes di makinye org 2....the problem is...lantak die la kn...die ade duit nk beli...n 1 more...kereta2 yg ada bkn nye direka khas utk korg kn...so...xpayah la membebel lak....aishhh....pelik2....

hah....ni pn 1 hal lg...kalo 2 famili berjiran masing2 ade anak dara...mule la di comparekn segala bende....yg mane cantik la...yg mane pandai la...yg mane rajin la...ade bf kaya...ada tunang milionnare...bla bla bla....rimas2....huh...

pas2 x kurang jugak yg suke ckp besa tinggi melangit....anak die cantik...pandai masak...itu ini...bla bla bla...tp habuk pn tarak....pelik2....perlu ke nk cerita semua 2 kt org?? dah la cite x btl....denga hari2 pn nk termuntah ijo denga....kalo btl mmg sume 2 ade...xyah cite kt org pn org dah boley tau....huh...

so...ni baru sikit nih....kalo nk huraikn sume....mmg smpai pagi esok x sudah2 lg...mmmmmm....

Moral of the story: jgn la jadi mcm org2 kat atas...akan memecah belahkn suasana yg aman damai....n wat org meluat teramat....

sekian...(^_^)

Scare to face the next stage of life??

Next stage of life?? ape yg bermain d fikiran anda?

next stage of life = means ape yg korg akan buat, akan jadi lepas ni...in future....

actually juz wanna share what i feel about my future....

future yg masih jauh ke depan..xnampak lg hala tuju ke mana....

tp perancangan 2 mmg ada....n perlu ada bg setiap manusia kot...mmm..lebey kurang mcm angan2 mat jenin jugak la...tp xsalah...sbb tiap sesuatu mesti bermula ngn angan2....juz jgn berangan atas pokok jerr...kang jatuh pokok plak....heeeeee....juz kiddin'.....

Now....life as students.....almost 6 years brhempas pulas belajar smpai akhirnya skrg da final year...Alhamdulillah....hope everything will be okay....

The NEXT stage = working of coz!!....da x larat nk blaja...da pecah pale da blaja...hehee.....

lepas ni kene carik kerja...pas2 kerja n kerja...kumpul duit plak...mmm...persoalannya...senang ke susah rezeki aku nk dpt keje nnti?? huhuhu...takut....

Insyaallah..rezki ade d mane2....bile da kerja...d 1st thing nk wat....nk kurangkn beban family aku...dsebabkn adik2 aku masih belajar lg....ley la aku tggung die cket2....

n pas2...aku nk kumpul aset @ harta...welll.....pompuan pn perlu kumpul aset sekarang ni....jgn harap kat laki korg je nnti....in future...kt xtau lg apa akan jd...so...be prepared....:)

aku nk beli kereta n rumah dulu.....thats the most important things....mmmm.....aku nak miliki sume 2 dengan hasil titik peluh aku sndiri...

the NEXT stage = married.....weehuuuuu!!! takut woooo.....

get married with someone that ALLAH gives u....have children after that....what a beautiful life...(^_^)....but marriage isn't simple....needs a lot of thing to considered....

what i'm dream of = have a happy family.....(^_^)

Having children with the spouse that ALLAH sent to me....what a beautiful life....cant wait for the moment i will become a mother...hahahaaa...(naluri ibu kuat la konon)

the NEXT stage = grow older with my soulmate....my husband....my children by my side.....

the NEXT stage = mati....hope akan mati dlm Iman...insyaallah....

the NEXT stage = hope to see everyone i love in heaven....(^_^)

mcm g2 la kehidupan kat dunia ni...yg akhirnya akan mati jugak....

~~THE END~~

aksi si kecik.....

Why this happened??

Tersentak seketika time aku merenung ke setiap sudut di penuhi dengan kaum2 lelaki pada waktu yg sepatutnye mereka ke masjid2 utk menyahut seruan Ilahi menunaikn solat Jumaat....why?? kenape?? kenapa diorg x g solat jumaat?? huh!! nak je aku tanye sorg2 yg ade kat c2...setiap peringkat umur ade...baik yg muda...baik yg tua...sume ade la...

bukan fisrt time aku tengok suasana camni...da selalu....aku mmg selalu jugak keluar waktu2 org g sembahyang jumaat nih..alasannye...mungkin shopping mall akan kosong....tp sebaliknye...penuh lg ade la ngn diorg nih...kenapa?? why?? huhuhu....

aku akui mmg aku x la baek sgt nk persoalkn bende ni...tp ni ape yg aku nampak depan mata aku sendiri...dan aku rase aku ade hak utk berkata2....

susah sgt kerr nk g solat jumaat yg diwajibkan atas mereka?? kalo solat jumaat yg seminggu sekali ni pun punye payah nk wat...agak2..kalo solat 5 waktu mcm mane plak yerr?? huhuhu.....tuhan jerr tahu....

Agak pelik kn..ape nk jadi dunia skrg...sepatutnye lelaki sebagai pemimpin kene la jaga semua ni...adusss...mcm mane nk carik calon suami yg ok nih?? :P...ngeeee.....yela...spttnye lelaki yg memimpin pompuan..pas2...bile perangai pompuan x elok..nak salahkn pompuan...

mmmm....renung2kanlah.....dari mana silapnye...sebelum terlambat...beringat2 lah ye kawan2....:)

Life as a final year student....

Da final year...pejam celik je da final year kn...huhuhu...actually byk bende kene pk bile da final year...terutama final year project...

X cukup ngn wat thesis n present fyp jerr...ade 1 lg subject yg perlukan pengorbanan yg besa jugak...iaitu...Food plant design...huh...Alhamdulillah...da siap pn anta report yg same tebal ngn thesis td...juz tggu nk present plak jumaat nih...haiyaaakkk...takut jugak...

mmmm....n ade seperkara lg...LI...or latihan industry...mmm....agak susah n pening nak carik...kalo boley...aku nk carik company besar n mungkin peluang kerja kat c2 pn cerah...kalo boley xmo menganggur..huhuhu....

Alhamdulillah jugak sbb da dpt kat Dairy Mas under Fonterra sdn bhd....elaun = RM500....area Shah alam...under Health and Safety Department....mmmmm.....hope everything is gonna be okay there...:)

Kenapa....

Ada byk persoalan yg aku sendiri x tahu jawapannya....

Kenapa manusia perlu berlagak dengan kecantikan yg ALLAH bg kat die?

Mereka ni x tahu n x sedar ke kecantikan i2 hanyalah pinjaman semata2 yg ALLAH bg kat dunia ni...kecantikan 2 pn 1 ujian tau...kerana cantik kt maybe lupa diri...lupa siapa yg bg nikmat 2...n mungkin bermegah2 dengan kelebihan yg ada 2...

Sampai kn ade jugak sesetengah org sanggup menghina org yg bg die "x cantik" sambil memuji2 diri sendiri sangat cantik...ini bkn kisah dongeng...mmg terjadi...aku sendiri pernah jmpe org mcm ni...ape nk wat...biar Allah je tentukan....

n selalu la ingt...kalo rase diri tu cantik...ramai lagi yg lg cantik dr anda....

Ada lagi persoalan laen....Kenapa org kaya selalu berlagak?? n sanggup pulak merendah2kn org yg x sama taraf ngn mereka?? perlu ke wat cm2??huhuhu...

xtahu ke mereka...kekayaan 2 datang dari Allah jugak...nnti bile2 mase je Allah boley tarik kn...

n the last persoalan yg bermain d minda...

kenapa org pandai selalu berlagak pandai?? errr....yes..mmg manusia dilahirkn berlainan tahap kepandaiannye..tp xley ke bersikap rendah diri?? mmmm...kepandaian 2 pn boley ditarik bile2 mase kalo Allah nak tau...contohnye...cam tibe2 jadi sasau ke...gile kerr...mereng kerr..nak cam2?? mintak jauh la kn...

So...kesimpulannya...just be natural guys.....(^_^)

G6PD?? Ape tuh??

G6PD...denga cam biasa2 jerr....tp sebenarnye name penyakit...yg aku hidapi dr kecik..seyes bende ni aku mmg pandang remeh jerrr....tapi sebenarnye x ley pandang remeh gak...nk tau details...sila bace yg kt bwh nih

"Gucose-6-Phosphate Dehydrogenase (G6PD)..G6PD deficiency is an inherited condition in which the body doesn't have enough of the enzyme glucose-6-phosphate dehydrogenase, or G6PD, which helps red blood cells (RBCs) function normally. This deficiency can cause hemolytic anemia, usually after exposure to certain medications, foods, or even infections. Most people with G6PD deficiency don't have any symptoms, while others develop symptoms of anemia only after RBCs have been destroyed, a condition called hemolysis. In these cases, the symptoms disappear once the cause, or trigger, is removed. In rare cases, G6PD deficiency leads to chronic anemia"

The symptoms:

• Sudden rise of body temperature and yellow coloring of skin and mucous membrane.
• Dark yellow-orange urine.
• Pallor, fatigue, general deterioration of physical conditions.
• Heavy, fast breathing.
• Weak, rapid pulse.

Food that should be avoid:

1. Flava beans

2. Legumes

3. Soya or soy

4. Peanut

5. Menthol-flavoured

Medication should be avoid:

Analgesics / Antipyretics

acetanilid, acetophenetidin (phenacetin),

amidopyrine (aminopyrine) *,

antipyrine *, aspirin *, phenacetin,

probenicid, pyramidone

Miscellaneous

alpha-methyldopa, ascorbic acid *,

dimercaprol (BAL), hydralazine,

mestranol, methylene blue, nalidixic acid,

naphthalene, niridazole,

phenylhydrazine, toluidine blue,

trinitrotoluene, urate oxidase, vitamin

K * (water soluble), pyridium, quinine *

Antimalarials

chloroquine *, hydroxychloroquine,

mepacrine (quinacrine), pamaquine,

pentaquine, primaquine, quinine *,

quinocide

Cytotoxic / Antibacterial

chloramphenicol, co-trimoxazole,

furazolidone, furmethonol, nalidixic acid,

neoarsphenamine, nitrofurantoin,

nitrofurazone, para-aminosalicylic acid

Cardiovascular Drugs

procainamide *, quinidine *

Sulfonamides / Sulfones

dapsone, sulfacetamide,

sulfamethoxypyrimidine, sulfanilamide,

sulfapyridine, sulfasalazine, sulfisoxazole

banyaknyer....banyaknyerr....errrr...

selame ni mkn maen sesah jerr....x pantang sgt kot...juz aku ingt mak penah pesan..jgn makan kacang2...jgn bau ubat gegat..kalo nk g klinik or hospital..kene gtau doktor...sy ade G6PD...tkt salah mkn ubat...nnti sakit...huhhu..aku amik remeh jerr...da 23 taun kot...haisshhh....

mmmmmm.....

hasil tgnku... :)

ini adalah cross stitch or lebey krg cam sulaman gak la....hasil tgn ku.... :)...kos nk wat nih... mencecah rm80....wow!!...tp minat punye pasal...who cares...dr wat bende yg x berfaedah...wat bende ni nmpk gak la hasilnye...mmmm....(^_^)

Teruja tgk Myvi latest...purple!!! cool!!!

Love purple!!....

Design kt dlm pn cool gilerrr.....

Seyes before ni mmg berangan giler nk ade kete ngn faveret kaler aku.....Purple....

Mesti cun giler....superb r.....n tibe2 kuar plak myvi yg latest nih wane purple....

Wait for me myvi...i will buy one....this one...purple!! lovin' it....(^_^)

Ape nak buat???

Sebenarnye...gambar kt atas ni xde kaitan pn ngn ape yg aku nk tls...ngah bosan nih...hahaha....padahal byk je keje...wat thesis pn boley...arrrggghh!! bile nk dtg mood wat thesis nih....haiiyyyaaa....

sem depan sem last blaja....xsaba nk abes blaja...nk keje...nk beli kete..nak ade duit sndiri...nak kawen???? errr....2 belum...hahhaa....belum bersedia dr sume segi....

mmm....tkt gak kn cabaran kt tempat keje....keje kat mane la kn..mcm2 pk...huhuhu...juz wait n see jela kn...

tp cam sedey plak bile da nk abes blaja...sbb da byk kenangan time blaja nih...sedey gak terpkse berpisah ngn kwn2...tp nk wat canne...setiap pertemuan msti ade pengakhirannye....huhuhu...

skrg....focus on the last sem...do my bezz on fyp....yeaah!!! i can do it...insyaallah....:)

Malaysiaku gemilang....

Bak kata pepatah " hujan emas di negara orang..hujan batu d negara sendiri...lebey baek negara sendiri"....xtau la btl ke x pepatah nih...hentam saje...

Sebagai rakyat Malaysia yg sejati...aku sangat2 berbangga digelar "Malaysian".....cket pn x rase rendah diri...nk rase rendah nape..eerrr....wlaupn empunye diri mmg da rendah...hahaha...

.Malaysia hebat what....team football Malaysia pn da makin hebat...wink2...(^^_)....tp aku bkn nk cite sal football....cume nk cite sedikit kekesalan sbgai rakyat Malaysia ngn sesetengah sikap rakayat kt...huhuhu....

Demi nama...pangkat...harta...sesetengah pihak sggp gadaikan maruah negara....X rase bersyukur ke ngn tanah Melayu yg sgt aman makmur...damai permai....

Kalo skrg da mcm nih...sempat ke aku nk idup senang nanti?? Ape la naseb zaman anak2 aku nnti kn?? huhuhu....takut sume back to the future jepp...jadi cam zaman kne jajah....2 bile org luar da msk campur...aissshh...ngeri kn...

Yela...org2 besar x ssh...sbb diorg ley senang lenang...papepn rakyat gak yg kene tanggung derita...aku sedey...sbb aku sangat sayangkn MALAYSIA...huhu...hope keamanan Malaysia akan berkekalan...4eva....Ameennn...

Past is past..

Past is past..please~~~

Susah nk lupe bende2 pahit yg da berlalu kn...walau pn da lame berlalu...

aku sendiri sedang lalui...kesah2 pahit dulu seolah2 cam x bagi ruang perkara2 manis nk masuk dalam hidup aku...

tapi sampai bile?? papepn...kene cube lupekan...takut dengan bayang2 mase lalu...sampai takut n terlalu curiga nak hadapi masa depan....huhuhu...sume ni akan musnahkn diri sendiri gak...

Nasihat aku...jangan pernah tinggalkan kesan pahit dlm idup sumone...sbb kt xpenah tau ape rasenye...selagi x kene batang idung sndiri....

so...for me...cheerr!!! be happy always....past is past...focus on your bright future...it will be okay....(^_^)

Am i crazy?? reality or fantasy??

I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Till you open the door
There's so much more
I've never seen it before

I was trying to fly
But I couldn't find wings
Then you came along
And you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
Spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier,
Crazier, crazier

Watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know
How that would feel
And you made it so real

You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground'
Spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier,
Crazier, crazier,
ohh......

Baby, you showed me what living is for
I don't want to hide anymore..... more....

You lift my feet off the ground,
spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier,
Crazier, crazier
Crazier, crazier

Truly fall for u....

No doubt....<3

LETTER FOR "KAWAN"

Rase cam semalam sume 2 jadi...2 years...aku kumpul kekuatan aku....kekuatan yg ko pernah destroyed dulu....kau mmg xpenah rasa pe yg aku lalui....tp skrg cam sume da jadik terbalik....ko jd cam aku dulu....

Kawan...aku da lama maafkan kau.....aku xpernah berdendam pun....n aku redha je sume yg jadi...smpai aku boley jd sekuat skrg....

tapi aku nk mintak maaf....sebab aku mmg xkan boleh jadi "kawan" kau yg dulu lg...kisah kt dl...ko yang tamatkan...da jadi sejarah pn....its been too late when u came back....its too late kawan....

sebab aku xkn bg peluang utk diri aku di sakiti lg....da cukup da dulu air mata aku kering bile ingt sume ttg ko....i'm deserved to be happy....n now....my heart has been stolen by sumone else....but not u.....

Sorry again.....harapan aku...jadikn kisah dl sebagai pengajaran....jgn pernah wat org cam2...tkt kt terkena semula....n jangan perbodohkan dri kau utk org yg x hargai ko....tp buang org yg slalu hargai ko.....thats a lesson u should learn....

n hope kau akan jumpe "kawan" yg lebey nice dr "kawan" kau yg dl...jgn pernah wat bende yg same pd die...u will regret all ur life...

Sorry again....from your late "kawan"......

ITS BEEN TOO LATE.....

Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?

You lost the love I loved the most

And I learned to live, half-alive

And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?

Runnin' round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back

You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?

So don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Dream???

Dream....Mimpi....Impian...Cita2...or angan2...rite?? dan Dream adalah sesuatu yg sangat ssh utk kt gapai rite??? bende yg ssh utk kt gapai ni la slalunye org panggil mimpi.....or dream....

Slalu kt denga org ade mcm2 dream...dream car...dream house...dream guy...dream girl....whatever..... tp x sume dream2 ni kt akan dpt.....slalunye x dpt la..senang cite....so...arini aku nk cite sal dream guy...haha...yela...sbb aku pompuan kn....

Slalu kalo org tanye aku....camne dream guy ko??? hahahha....aku akan gelak...sbb aku xtau nk jawab pe....sbb nye...aku xpenah plak letak kriteria2 or syarat2 utk berkwn ngn org nih.....

Dream guy kalo kt slalu denga...mesti lah seorg yg kacak...hot gilerr.....superb r....terbaek!!....wow!!! mmg dream la kn...hahaha....mmg dream bg aku la...sbb x mungkin la aku yg x bape nk chantek ni demand2 nk dream guy org2 yg hotzz giler cm kt bwh ni....ewwww!!!

X layak kot....masih sedar diri lg...hahhaa......n aku pn xde la ber "dream" nk lelaki hotzz giler nih...huh!! cukuplerr sekadar penyejuk mata memandang...2 pn da nice kn... (^_^).....

Dan....slalunye org nak dream guy bukan setakat hotzzz + hensem...tp poketnye juga kene hensem...hahaha...cam anak2 datukkk....anak2 tan sri....wooooo!!!.....tp kn...anak2 dato n tan sri 2...bapak diorg je yg kayo...watpo kn...hahaha....Slalu sangat la aku denga nak jodohkn anak2 diorg ngn lelaki2 kaya sbb ley menjamin mase depan katenye....iyewww kewww??? hahaha...jawab la sndiri....

X dinafikan la....duit mmg sangat penting kalo nk hidup skrg nih....tp duit bukan segalanye....kalo duit berjuta2 smpai mati pn x abis.....tp hidup x happy...ape maknenye hidup?? kan2??? duit boley carik....kebahagiaan hakiki 2 yg susah nk carik...cheewaaah....hebat ayat aku...hahaha...n 1 lagi...duit x ley bwk masuk kubur pn..hehehe....

Ade 1 pepatah org putih " money can buy anything but happiness"....btl tuhh.....so....utk carik dream guy bg aku.....x perlu la nk tgk harta bende kot.....cukuplah sekadar besederhana.....asalkan dapat hidup selesa...alhamdulillah,.....

hahaaha.....So....ape lg slalu org nmpk kalo sebut sal dream guy??...yg ketara 2 bende 2 la kn....tp bg aku...ade 1 lagi.....IMAN....uisshhh....ssh hidup kalo xde iman kn....udah lerr aku ni x bape nk betul...hehehe...so....dream guy slalu nye dikategorikn seorg lelaki yg ley membimbing ke jalan yg benarrr......

Bukanlah demand msti nak ustaz or hafiz quran sekurang2nye....wow!! mcm la aku ni ustazah plak kn...cm xlayak la nk demand cm2....so...cukuplah yg tau serba sedikit soal2 agama....jgn xtau lgsg...mmg ssh ler kn...hehehe....at least ley giude aku....biasala...pompuan ni sinonim ngn sifat lalai....lelaki la yg slalu kene ingatkn....so...cam2 la....(^_^)....

Dah 3 perkara aku sebut kt atas tuhhh..... 1: hotzzz.... 2: duit ......3: iman.....

hahahaha.....so....2 adalah yg major2 la....yg minor2 ni cm bese la kn.....

Semua org pn mesti nk yg jujur....setia....penyayang....ikhlas....romantik....(^_^).....hahaha....ape lg eh???

ooo...paling penting......sudi terima kekurangan n kelebihan ...huhuhu.....

So...tamat sudeyyy celoteh aku mengenai dream.....tq...(^_^)....

what kind of girl???

Assalamualaikum....firstly....nk kenalkn diri...name aku HIDAYAH....n i am a kind of girl with a lot of bad attitude.....not perfect....not "ayu" as byk2 pompuan....not chantek....not nice...n everthing is not....

Not going to be very humble sampai org bace pn rase nk termuntah n menyampah.....just wanna say...i am a simple girl...with a simple needs...and simple thoughts.....

Ape tujuan aku tulis sume nih??? because i wanna make it clear....ramai yg x kenal sape HIDAYAH kn??? means...kenal btl2 la sifat burok aku nih...huhuhu....pas korg btl2 kenal...kompem lg nyampah nk kwn ngn aku...sure!!!

I am a kind of girl yg hanya kecoh dlm blog ni jeh....dlm blog punye la pjg berceloteh.....tp kt dunia luar....totally differ!!! even nk suh bg sepatah 2 kate pn mmg x sanggup...

HIDAYAH mmg dah dilahirkn kt dunia ni ngan sifat yg x bape nk banyak ckp....pendiam....xperamah kerrr??? or sombong??? yup...xdinafikn ramai yg ckp aku ni x peramah n sombong gak...welll....aku x marah...nk wat canne...huhuhu....

Even dikalangn sedara mara yg riuh rendah pn kdg2 aku x byk ckp....dah nk wat canne....aku mmg mcm nih?? nk pakse aku ckp canne?? kdg2 aku puas pakse diri sndiri nk bercakap...tp laen plak jadik...aisshhh...org ckp aku syok sndiri lak....

Aku mmg hanya ckp yg perlu saje sumtimes....n kalo ngn org yg br kenal...or x bape nk bese...mmg cket jela bercakap...xpn juz hai2...n plg kurang juz simple smile....so...thats means x peramah kn...huhu....yes!!! aku mmg x peramah....

bile jumpe org2 yg aku x bp kenal...lg2 org yg xkenal....mmg la aku wat xtau jer.....kdg2 senyum jela.....so...aku mmg seorg yg sombong.....

tp kalo da btl2 kenal aku....aku la manusia yg plg byk ckp...plg ska nyakat org...plg ska wat loyar buruk...cume nk smpai ke tahap 2...wow!!! perlu mase yg sgt lame kot.....n ni slh 1 sifat buruk aku....huh!!

Aku bkn x cube jd seorg yg kecoh nih...da cube...tp aku rase benci giler kt diri sndiri lepas 2...huhu..contohnye....

Aku skola asrama dr form 1 smpai form 5...aku ni bknlah anti sosial...ramai jerr kwn2....kwn pompuan pn ramai...kwn laki pn ramai....tp mcm mane aku berkomunikasi ngn diorg nih sgt2 lah berbeza....hah!! ape aku ckp nih?? msti korg x paham..ok2....mcm nihhhh...

berbeza 2 mksdnye.....mmmm.....penah la aku join sekelompok kwn2 girl aku ngah bergurau senda ngn boyz....n aku xkn join ape pn yg diorg ckp...aku juz duduk n dengar jeppp....hahahhaa....ngok je aku kn???aku terpikir gak sbb pe....

kali ke 2....aku try plak yg laen...kali ni...aku cube jd sekecoh yg mungkin....OMG.....aku sangat benci diri sendiri lepas tuh....huhuhu.....aku xley jadi org laen semata2 sbb xnk jadi pendiam kn???huhuhu...lepas 2...aku stay ngn perangai buruk aku....

yess!! aku hanya boley kecoh ngn certain2 org jepppp....n itu adalah sifat buruk aku!!!! hope korg x benci aku lepas bace nih...huhuhu...

dan seiring ngn mase HIDAYAH akan cube jadi se peramah yg mungkin ngn sape2 je yg die jumpe....x kn jd sombong ngn sape2....aku slalu cube kot...huhuhu.....tp cm x berjaya....so.....kwn2 still nk kwn ngn aku pas tau perangai burookk aku nih?? sorry...im not perfect....juz hope....kwn2 yg sejati jer yg ley terime kekurangn aku nih...n kdg2 kwn2 sgt memainkn peranan.....tq kwn2.....

n x lupe jugak...jutaan sorry kepade sesape yg amat2 terase ati ngn akuuuu......sorryyy...sbb xpenah bermaksud utk jadi tidak peramah or sombong...aku akan cube sedaya upaya buang sifat buroookkkk ni!!!! argghhh!!!!!

sekian dr HIDAYAH.....

kesah dongeng semata2??

Apa yang semua org paham ngn kesah dongeng nih???

Kesah dongeng = kesah yg x betul = kesah yang di reka2 = kesah yang x wujud....

Kesah dongeng yg fames slalunye Cinderella....Snow white.....n byk lg la kalo nk sebut sume....slalunye kesah dongeng tentang kesah percintaan sejati...

The point is....wujud ke cinta sejati?? maybe persepsi aku berlainan ngn org yg pernah berjumpe ngn cinta sejati....sbb aku xpenah jumpe cinta sejati dr seorg manusia....cinta yg paling sejati adalah milik ALLAH....

Kadang2 terfikir....ape kriteria dlm sesebuah cinta sejati seorg manusia?? perlu wajah yg cantikkah??? atau ckp semata2 hati yg ikhlas???

Xmungkin....manusia hanya mencarik kesempurnaan.....kesempurnaan yg mmg xde tolok bandingnye.....padahal....xde manusia yg sempurna....melainkan ALLAH....

Cinta sejatikah kalo mencari berdasarkn rupa yg cantek semata2??? atau kekayaan yg melimpah ruah??? atau kelebihan2 yg diagungkan.....kemanakah cinta sejati kalo hilangnye rupa yg cantek d telan usia...ke mana cinta sejati kalo lenyapnye kekayaan setinggi gunung??? n adakah lg cinta sejati kalo yg tggl hanye kelemahan bkn kelebihan lg...???

Apakah jawapan yg plg tepat utk soalan kat atas??? jawapannye....tanye hati anda masing2....n jawab sendiri persoalan ini......

Cinta sejati mungkin wujud...mungkin jugak x....sbb sgt mustahil nk dpt kn?? ckp soal kriteria cinta sejati seorg manusia....

Cinta sejati sepatutnye....cinta yg ikhlas lahir dr hati bkn semata2 kerana rupa paras yg cantik.....cinta yg nilainye lebey tinggi...jauh lebey tinggi dari kekayaan seribu tahun....cinta yg sanggup menerima semua kekurangan n kelebihan sebagai bonus.....

Cinta mcm ni xkn lenyap walau rupa sudah pudar ditelan usia....cinta mcm jugak x kn pudar...walau habis harta kekayaan.....n cinta mcm ni jugak xkn hilang walau semua kelebihan berkurangan......cinta mcm ni lah sepatutnye yg digelar cinta sejati.....

Hope everyone try ur bezz utk jadi cinta mcm ni...xperlu mencari selagi anda x jd mcm ni dl....hope....one day...u will find....so do i....

Cinta sejati yg mmg terbukti wujud hanyalah cinta dari ALLAH...setiap hela nafas yg kt hembus menandakan betapa ALLAH sangat menyayangi diri kt....SUBHANALLAH....

....STACY ~ KISAH DONGENG....

Ku sedar ku tak seberapa,

Jika dibanding mereka,

Yang jauh lebih megah dari diri ini

Apa yang mampu ku berhias

Hanyalah hati yang ikhlas

Terpendam simpan untuk dia yang sudi,

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya
Mencintai aku bukan kerana rupa
Dalam waktu sedu
Dalam waktu hiba
Ku harapkan dia rela

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya
Sanggup menerima insan tak sempurna
Atau mungkin cinta sebegitu hanya
KISAH DONGENG SAJA....

pilihan antara hidup n mati....

Apa yg anda bayangkn ngn pilihan antara hidup n mati nih??? hehee.....

If u want to know more......teruskan membaceee........

Look at the picture above?? ape tuh?? xtau kerr?? rings la...hehee....it juz a simbolik....sebenarnye...aku nk cite sal penyatuan 2 jiwa....2 cincin kat atas ni cm simbol 2 hati bersatu.....

dan...ape pulak kaitan cincin nih ngan pilihan hidup n mati??? yess!! i know...msti sume tertanya2....let me tell u....this is my opinion....n sesetengah org ade opinion yg berlainan...

Pilihan hidup n mati...percaturan untuk selamanya...... means....WEDDING!!!...

Bila sebut wedding.....sume da tertangkap dlm fikiran...menamatkn zaman bujang....n persoalannye....nak menamatkan zaman bujang bukanlah perkara yang senang oke!!...

Nak tau kenape aku ckp bukan bende yg senang?? yela...kahwin bukan ley maen redah jeppp...mesti la kene carik calon yg betul2 kan....

n persoalan lagi...cane nk carik calon tuh??? tp bg aku...sume 2 akan datang seiring ngn waktu....bile mase nye tibe....akan datang la sume 2....juz doa n yakin jeppp....

For me....nak carik calon suami ni....just need the simple one...xperlu terlalu hotzz!!....ssh nk jage kot...nnti jd rebutan...isshh...merane den....i just hope to meet someone that can make me feel perfect...not someone perfect!!....coz...no one is perfect....someone that can make me feel comfortable, safe and respect me as a woman......

dan yg plg penting kejujuran n keikhlasan......n of coz kasih sayang yg xkn pernah pudar hingga ke akhir hayat.....

The point is......ape yg di impikan 2 akan dapat ker?? opppsss!!! hope jgn putus2 berdoa n berharap....

Actually...bile sebut je sal WEDDING...perasaan yg sgt takut muncul....i dont know why...huhh!!

Maybe sbb zaman skrg nih ramai sgt kot kawin n then cerai....agaknye ape sbbnye?? xtahan ngn dugaan alam prkahwinan kerr?? or x tahan godaan pompuan2 cantik kt luar sane?? (khas utk lelaki)...pompuan pn same....huhuhu...MENAKUTKN BETUL X??

kalo berkahwin n end up ngn bende yg sangat menyakitkan...ape gune sebuah perkahwinan tuh??? but....one thing....kene selalu yakin ngn kuasa Tuhan...sume yg terjadi pasti ade hikmah...tp kite kene carik jalan penyelesaian yg terbaek b4 akhiri ngn sesuatu yg sgt menakutkn...huhuhu....

Tgk mak ayah kt punye perkahwinan....kekal smpai akhir hayat..canne eh nk jd camtuh??? mmmm.....xtau la kan...

perkahwinan should be something beautiful...penyatuan 2 hati...perkongsian 2 jiwaa.....n sepatutnye...kasih sayang yg berkekalan hingga akhir hayat......hope n pray that i will have this beautiful wedding.....

Berangan jeppp tau...hahaha...tp xsalah kn??? sume org ptt fikir sal ni...lagipun...umo bukan makin mude....da tue nih...hehehe...umo cm aku nih da ptt beranak 3 da....hahaha....

thats alll about pilihan hidup n mati...daaaa.... <3

friendship and love?? what are those??

When we talk about friendship.....slalu org akan bayangkn...kawan baek...kawan rapat....of BFF (best frends forever)....yup...thats rite....but BFF slalu nye di kalangan girls.....kalo friendship between boy n girl?? then what we can call it?? dulu...aku slalu denga org ckp...boy n girl xkn ley kawan baek punye...xde istilah friendship between a boy and a girl....aku x caye kot....seyes...bg aku..pe salahnye....then...when it happen to me...now...i realized....sume kate2 2 ade betulnye...

lets start with the 1st true story of my life.....

i have a good friend...a boy...we share a lot things together....we share the things that we like and don't...even the girl that he like.....it comes to have nice friendship with him...but later on.....it turns to somethings different....the girl that he like doesnt like him (something like that la)....then, he always said..."kalo sy xdpt die...awk kn ade"..and always said..."sudi x awk jd gf sy??" what the??? but....i refused....n said...no!! of course...u dont love me....we are friends rite...how can u say that such things!!....but....die slalu wat aku smkin hari smakin ska kt die...n thats the things yg aku xley deny...yes!! i fall finally....yesh!! thank you for making me feel stupid....we never been declared as lovers...but....die slalu bg harapan...then...bile die dpt that girl....he left me without words!! then...bile girl 2 sakitkn die...die dtg lg bg harapan kt aku...then i decide!! awk mmg x ikhlas kwn ngn sy....juz anggap sy tempat utk awk lupekn org yg awk syg...damn!!! get lose...i dont need a friend like u....but perasaan syg aku kt die mmg kuat even die wat mcm2 kt aku...maybe sbb dr friendship turn to love...it seems to be something different n xkn dpt dilupakan....at last...die dpt girl 2...n...aku slalu doakn yg terbaek utk die...walaupn rase cm diperbodohkn spjg mase...then...ley ckp nk tgk aku bahagia ngn someone else...can u guys ever think what i feel???? die wat aku cmni...the....ley ckp cam2?? tp skrg....aku xnk pk sal die lg....die da jd kenangan lepas...after this...kalo same thing happen kt die lg...pandai2 la idup....

dr cite ni.....aku sedar...mmg friendship boley turn to love..but...friendship dlm kesah aku kt atas ni dh dikhianati...n i hate it....

the 2nd true story...

errr....ade kerr?? hehee...sbnrnye kesah ni br nk bermule...thats it...xde pape yg nk diceritakan....hope everything is okay....(^_^)....pray for me ya!!

only me n u (mimi).....

guess what??? my little kitty....MIMI....comel kn??? wellll.....aku skrg nih ngah kebosanan tahap gaban...da xtau nk watpe...lgpn mmg da lame sgt kn x update blog nih...aku plak ngh keseorangan.....housemate sume blk....tggl aku n mimi jela skrg...FYP punye fasal...terpkse la korban cket...huhuhu.....

naseb baek ade si kecik nih...dok melayan die jela...hehehe....ntah2 die pn bosan dok ngadap muke aku nih......

progress FYP....br setel 30% kot...huhuhu...masih jauh perjalanan...hope everything will be fine....(^_^)....

oh my god!!! i cant believe this...(^_^)....

I can't believe this will happen to me....i should admit this:

THE THINGS THAT I DENY THE MOST...BECOME THE THINGS THAT I..I...OH MY GOD...I CAN'T SAY IT....OKAY2...RELAX!! ....IT BECOME THE THINGS THAT I LIKE THE MOST!!!

I knew you has stalking may blog....n if u read this...its okay...still feel like blushing (^_^)....but u said...we will share everything...rite?? so....i will let u know what i feel....

n i want to thank you to make me feel this way....u know...i always denying this...i dont know why...maybe because u r my frend...n i didnt aspects a friend will become more than a friend...

n now!!...i will not refuse if it will become more than that....BUT.... we still need time....we have a longgg time to go..rite??? let it come naturally.....smoothly...i even cant express it with words....it come2 to be speechless....OMG....

days...after days....the percentage is increasing.....n i wondering...this is a good sign for me??? welll....now....i admit...i feel something different about you.....n if this is something good for both of us....i pray it will long lasting....(^_^)....

and when the FAITH makes all things possible.....LOVE make them easy.....

i miss him too.....

Look at this cute boy......

Allah lebey sayangkn adik Amir...die pergi sewaktu usia yg sangat muda....2 tahun.....pergi mengadap ilahi dalam keadaan yang masih bersih dan suci dari dosa n noda...moga Allah berikan tempat yang baek kepadanya....

Allahyarham meninggal sebab mengidap penyakit tumor otak....tumor dlm otaknye mmg da ade dr dlm rahim lg....tapi...Amir seorg yg kuat tahan sakit..walaupn hanya berusia beberapa bulan...die boley bertahan hingga 2 tahun....

kesian....sengsara sangat tgk die keluar masuk hospital....kepala kene operate..masuk tiub...sangat sakit utk kanak2 seusia die hadapi....

dan....pemergiannya sangat dirasai.....

aku selalu merinduimu Adik Amir....

i miss him......

Dari form 1 sampai skrg...aku da blaja dok berjauhan ngn family aku....bile aku balik rumah....saat aku bukak pintu....org pertama yang aku tgk dalam umah adalah tokki....duduk atas kerusi panjang kt ruang tamu....tapi skrg....bile aku balik rumah....kerusi panjang 2 kosong.....aku sangat hiba...tapi aku tutup kehibaan aku 2...aku tau....tokki pn xkn ska aku sedey...cume...aku sangat rindukan die.....

Kekesalan yang tersangat...saat die hembuskn nafas terakhir...aku xde disisi....belum sempat aku balas segala pengorbanan die....belum sempat aku memohon maaf atas keterlanjuran aku berkata....

Aku sampai rumah....mayat dah pun terbujur kaku....tapi inilah takdir...yang hidup pasti akan mati.....

Aku sangat rapat ngn tokki....die membesarkn aku saat ibu bapa aku mencari rezki utk kami.....dari aku kecik...smpai aku besar....tapi aku slalu jugak lawan ckp die...xdengar ckp die...aku sgt sedey bile ingt sume 2...terlalu sedey.....maafkn yaya, tokki....

ya ALLAH...tempatkan allahyarham di tempat yang mulia di sisimu....Ameennn.....